April 09, 2008
crawl myself out of bed by almost noon...
it feels so much beta at home den sitting in class listening to Pn Ramlah...rather die den sitting in her class for a period...
wen to ts to meet up XJ n KY...later to gold river...ther i saw a shop selling wantan mee...saw d chinese writin below d 'wan' word...it look so familiar...never notice its writin in my life b4...it was her last name...
some say i sud give up, as that may be d purpose of what she is doing...but how cud i? especially wen ther is so much misunderstandin...dun i have the chance to correct it? or sud i say, i dun nid to do it...its just a waste of strength...so wat if v settle this? that scar still remain...she may not heal that instant...i may not heal that instant...
this guessing game i dun wana play...listen to me...listen to my heart...but why don't i open my mouth?!!!
i've become too afraid...i feel so useless...this never happened before...i duno how to face it...i never come across someone who thinks like her...
i....i duno wat to do...each step i made, i am so afraid to make d wrong move...1 wrong move wud just take my life away...it is so dangerous...
now that we hardly see...hardly talk...wen are we gona be normal again? this i do not know...but please...dun let this last any longer...let's not suffer like this...or sud i say, dun let me go trough this misery....
this weekend wud really be busy...as i finally stop work...ther'll be a celebration party for Sapphire house...two to be exact...hope that it'll go well...
it feels so much beta at home den sitting in class listening to Pn Ramlah...rather die den sitting in her class for a period...
wen to ts to meet up XJ n KY...later to gold river...ther i saw a shop selling wantan mee...saw d chinese writin below d 'wan' word...it look so familiar...never notice its writin in my life b4...it was her last name...
some say i sud give up, as that may be d purpose of what she is doing...but how cud i? especially wen ther is so much misunderstandin...dun i have the chance to correct it? or sud i say, i dun nid to do it...its just a waste of strength...so wat if v settle this? that scar still remain...she may not heal that instant...i may not heal that instant...
this guessing game i dun wana play...listen to me...listen to my heart...but why don't i open my mouth?!!!
i've become too afraid...i feel so useless...this never happened before...i duno how to face it...i never come across someone who thinks like her...
i....i duno wat to do...each step i made, i am so afraid to make d wrong move...1 wrong move wud just take my life away...it is so dangerous...
now that we hardly see...hardly talk...wen are we gona be normal again? this i do not know...but please...dun let this last any longer...let's not suffer like this...or sud i say, dun let me go trough this misery....
this weekend wud really be busy...as i finally stop work...ther'll be a celebration party for Sapphire house...two to be exact...hope that it'll go well...
// posted by curious @ 7:14 PM 
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