October 15, 2008
break free
aint it funny that most of us do things at the very last minute and complain bout how difficult life is...when actually its our fault to blame..
and every time we realize that its our fault we would then be in a such a bad mood...
and yet we never chamge...the cycle just goes on...and on...
yah..i m 'experiencing' d same thing now...n its my studies...i really m shivering right down to my toes...n im still wasting time everyday doing unnescessary things...
could i save myself? could i be someone who is more organize? somethimes i envy other ppl who could manage their time or daily things so smoothly...
i have to say that i m really pathethic...but i see some improvement in some other things i do...yet some things no matter how prepared u r, other ppl just spoils it.. being incooperative n all...haiz..d circle just goes on...and on..
i wan to be free! haiz...could anyone slap me? n tell me to be strong? i m really going down...i just nid to go through this two months...y cant i do it? i wan to score..score like hell...i wan to get into local U...i wan to get really super duper results!
but i m sked...i love to procastinate..love to do other things...love to sleep, love to play...love, love, love...i really nid to give them all up...give up my bad habits...
hope dear mum doesnt make it so hard for me like what happened during my SPM...
fuh~~~~
and every time we realize that its our fault we would then be in a such a bad mood...
and yet we never chamge...the cycle just goes on...and on...
yah..i m 'experiencing' d same thing now...n its my studies...i really m shivering right down to my toes...n im still wasting time everyday doing unnescessary things...
could i save myself? could i be someone who is more organize? somethimes i envy other ppl who could manage their time or daily things so smoothly...
i have to say that i m really pathethic...but i see some improvement in some other things i do...yet some things no matter how prepared u r, other ppl just spoils it.. being incooperative n all...haiz..d circle just goes on...and on..
i wan to be free! haiz...could anyone slap me? n tell me to be strong? i m really going down...i just nid to go through this two months...y cant i do it? i wan to score..score like hell...i wan to get into local U...i wan to get really super duper results!
but i m sked...i love to procastinate..love to do other things...love to sleep, love to play...love, love, love...i really nid to give them all up...give up my bad habits...
hope dear mum doesnt make it so hard for me like what happened during my SPM...
fuh~~~~
October 11, 2008
addicted
been crazy about Harvest Moon this few days..could even play till 4am in the morning...
this game sudnt be played by me at right this moment when im having my STPM, n especially wen im so big now...
really acting like a small kid...couldnt contol my desires for this magnificent game...
yet though i noe i will surely get bored of it soon...
mum found out how i secretly play the game in my room...n i got caught red handed...
fuh~~~~
i really must stop this addiction of mine....
this game sudnt be played by me at right this moment when im having my STPM, n especially wen im so big now...
really acting like a small kid...couldnt contol my desires for this magnificent game...
yet though i noe i will surely get bored of it soon...
mum found out how i secretly play the game in my room...n i got caught red handed...
fuh~~~~
i really must stop this addiction of mine....
October 07, 2008
bye...
isnt it ironic?
how we've meet someone, and we have to say goodbye...
i said a brief gudbye to someone i met not long ago...to think that that gudbye was for eternal...
i never experince something like that before...but i m really upset about it... to see him passed away in front of me...with all his family n frens by his bedside...
chanting a bhuddist chant, n crying to see his heartbeat turned 0%...
that scenario lasted for more than 30 mins...till the nurse have to say that we only have 5 more minutes to see him, b4 the nurse take out all the tiubs n wires away from him...
i have to admit it was a hard sight to bare...i even told myself to be strong about it...
this few days i've been a vegetarian...i guess its the only thing i can help myself feel better...
i just hope that i wont have to bear such a scene in my teen n young adult life...
how we've meet someone, and we have to say goodbye...
i said a brief gudbye to someone i met not long ago...to think that that gudbye was for eternal...
i never experince something like that before...but i m really upset about it... to see him passed away in front of me...with all his family n frens by his bedside...
chanting a bhuddist chant, n crying to see his heartbeat turned 0%...
that scenario lasted for more than 30 mins...till the nurse have to say that we only have 5 more minutes to see him, b4 the nurse take out all the tiubs n wires away from him...
i have to admit it was a hard sight to bare...i even told myself to be strong about it...
this few days i've been a vegetarian...i guess its the only thing i can help myself feel better...
i just hope that i wont have to bear such a scene in my teen n young adult life...
October 01, 2008
Tragic
could never expect this to happen.
when oni tat day i saW him...today i see him lying there...
although not a very close fren, but it still struck me to pray for him.
He has quite a charming feature, n really a nice guy...although he smokes abit, but he's quiting now...could see him popping 'Fisherman's Friends' every time he wants to smoke.
this guy fren of mine, met an accicent on Sunday evening. At that time, i was at a charity dinner enjoying the company of my frens...little did i know that he was suppose to be at the charity dinner as well..
i only know that he met with an accident on Monday...when 4th sis sms me bout it...i merely doubted...but who would joke about it?
to hear that he was in ICU, meaning that he is in a critical state...evryone rushed to see him...
couldn't believe that 4th sis was so shocked till she cried, n couldn't eat, nor sleep well...
to me, 4th sis is a tough gal...yet she broke down in tears...
to see him in ICU, bandaged...it hurts inside to see him swollen...n injured like that...
there were so many comments from the doctors, n it was all negative...d doctors even said that he was brain dead on Monday, n might not even make it that nite...
but really thank God, since yesterday he improved alot...he made it till today, n he had his 3rd surgery today...a succesful one...the surgery is for is liver, brain, n hands...
finally, docs say that he is in a stabil mode...although he nay have many scars, or even break a bone or two...His life is still going on...and he will make it...we know he can...
He is strong, and his will to live is as well...let's all bow our heads and continue to pray for Khai Ping...
when oni tat day i saW him...today i see him lying there...
although not a very close fren, but it still struck me to pray for him.
He has quite a charming feature, n really a nice guy...although he smokes abit, but he's quiting now...could see him popping 'Fisherman's Friends' every time he wants to smoke.
this guy fren of mine, met an accicent on Sunday evening. At that time, i was at a charity dinner enjoying the company of my frens...little did i know that he was suppose to be at the charity dinner as well..
i only know that he met with an accident on Monday...when 4th sis sms me bout it...i merely doubted...but who would joke about it?
to hear that he was in ICU, meaning that he is in a critical state...evryone rushed to see him...
couldn't believe that 4th sis was so shocked till she cried, n couldn't eat, nor sleep well...
to me, 4th sis is a tough gal...yet she broke down in tears...
to see him in ICU, bandaged...it hurts inside to see him swollen...n injured like that...
there were so many comments from the doctors, n it was all negative...d doctors even said that he was brain dead on Monday, n might not even make it that nite...
but really thank God, since yesterday he improved alot...he made it till today, n he had his 3rd surgery today...a succesful one...the surgery is for is liver, brain, n hands...
finally, docs say that he is in a stabil mode...although he nay have many scars, or even break a bone or two...His life is still going on...and he will make it...we know he can...
He is strong, and his will to live is as well...let's all bow our heads and continue to pray for Khai Ping...
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